I have wondered for the past 3 years whether I would be homeschooling the little kids. I felt that God called me many many moons ago to homeschool the girls but I had not felt the call with the Darius and Cynthia. I know why I pulled the girls out and I know that when He called me to homeschool my girls I went to it 100%. I have been waiting for that same desire with the two little kids. I keep telling myself that I would be putting them in school unless I felt 100% God wanted me to.
Well, it has happened. I feel God tugging on my heart and telling me that they are my number one ministry. I need to give my very best to them and I need school them at home. It seems very interesting that this is what God wants again. Here I am working at a job I love and god is calling me to homeschool. I was not sure what this meant for me until the other day. I was talking to David and he begin to tell me how when the girls leave he will get up and do certain things for the kids. This is great news for me seeing to how I'm not a morning person. Without knowing what was going on in heart he begin to tell me how things would work out. I love when that happens.
It seems so interesting that God wants me to school my kids. I look around even in our church and see teachers that have gone to school to do what God is calling me to do. I feel so inadequate. I can not believe that God feels that I'm able to do this again. I am relying on God to equip me because without Him I will not be able to do this.