Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Home sweet Home

Well, vacation is over and I had to hit the ground running.  With Easter right around the corner I decided to cut my vacation short by a day and go into work today.  David and the kids came with me and I had David to work at the church too.  I'm sure he was excited about that.  
After getting some work done we went to the chiropractor for a family adjustment.   While gone on vacation Cynthia fell down the stairs and Darius nose has been running like crazy.  I sat in a car for over 15 hours and I needed to see Dr J the worst.  After getting adjusted we took the kids to the doctor to get ears checked.  Darius has a bad ear infection and Cynthia a viral infection.  Exciting stuff.
With all that said I'm really glad to be home.  We had a good vacation with great friends.  I have missed them dearly.  

Saturday, March 27, 2010

To Spiritual????

Is there such a thing as to spiritual.  I have begin to ask myself this question as I come in contact with people, people I love, people I love a lot, other Christians.  In every conversation is there a need to correct or to say would Jesus say or do that?  Interesting enough I believe in living out your faith, but when your faith becomes offensive or should I say "makes you look better than those you're around"  I believe maybe you 've missed the point. 

I want to be a person that is balanced.  I want to be a person who does not have to correct people for saying and doing things I believe to be unspiritual.  I would rather be a person who through my actions people can see I'm different.

I don't want to be the person who is all about quoting scriptures or telling you about how much bible I really know  because I want a person to change from something they see me do rather than always something I have to say. 

Am I wrong?  Have I missed the mark?  Do we go to church to just gain knowledge?  Do we go to school just to say we have a skill?

I'd say NO!!

If all I get is a bunch of head knowledge from church I've missed the point.  I need to go out and use the knowledge I receive.  If I hear about how I'm suppose to feed the poor and take care of the widows but never get off my fat butt to do it, I've missed the mark.

If I sit around and tell others how they need to stop talking like this or stop acting like that what signal am I sending.  Do I think I'm better than you?  Do I believe that because I graduated high school, went to a bible college or any college that I know more than you.  Lets not fool ourselves!! 
Head knowledge without heart knowledge is useless!!    It maybe a start but don't fool yourself my friend it does not make you better. 
Instead it makes you more accountable!!!!  Accountable for your actions and how you treat those you come in contact with. 

Those of us that have been granted GRACE better be the ones in the world showing much GRACE to others.  Don't sit around on your high horse spitting out how you think something sound be done, live it out.  Get off your butt and stop talking and start working.  Start showing the love of Christ.  We don't need a bunch of Christians who think they are better than the next person.  We need a bunch of Christians who know how important it is to stop pointing fingers at other Christian and Start winning people to Christ. 

The end is coming and I know that  I know people who will be going to hell if they don't accept Christ as their Savior.  Are we living with a since of urgency or our we to busy looking to see what other believers might be doing that we don't think we like or agree with. 

Friday, March 26, 2010

What's next???

Vacation oh sweet vacation.   I have enjoyed my time away and I'm trying hard not to think about things I need to get done for Easter Sunday.  I can hardly believe that Easter is in a week. 
Am I ready to celebrate? 
I want to be ready to celebrate but I feel sad inside.  Why?  Not really sure.  Change I guess.  I sit back and wonder why sometimes among so many people I love and care about that one could be still sad.  I have been fighting all day the feeling of sadness:
  • Sadness because my best friends live over 15 hours away and that makes trips to starbucks difficult :)
  • Sadness because 3 of my girls are going to be in college next year
  • Sadness because although all our older kids are going to be moved out we still have 16 plus years to go before we will really be empty nesters.
  • Sadness because although I strive to be a good mother I fail  terribly everyday
  • Sadness because although I strive to be a good wife to David I fail terribly at that too
  • Sadness because although I strive to please my Lord and Savior I fail at that as well
So there is my inner most feelings for the day.  I read a blog today which encouraged women to not hide how they feel but to let it be known that we as women don't have it all together and we don't have to act like we do. 
So there it is world.  I'm telling you the truth not only do I not have it together...I can barely make it seem as if I do. 

So what's next??? I don't know.  What I do know is that I am sad today and I will pray that God will help me get through today....today only and then I will ask for tomorrow.  My hope is that I will begin to feel better and that it will not be something I have to talk myself into feeling. 

Friday, March 19, 2010

finishing up the day

Here are a couple of pictures from the day:  Painting, Dancing, Dinosaur peanut butter & Jelly sandwiches, just to name a few of the things we did.  I forgot to get the camera out during the bubble dancing :(

Safe and sound

Well its been an interesting afternoon with lots of prayers.  We are leaving for vacation on Sunday to go to Illinois.  Kristie had to be off campus today, so she left heading to Illinois by herself earlier afternnon.  To make a long story short Kristie's car broke down.  She was 2 1/2 hours away from where she was suppose to be.  Our friends had to go pick her up.  I have been praying all afternoon for her safety.  There is nothing worse that one of your kids needing you...needing help and I could not be there.  The best thing is that her God who loves her more than me was there every minute she was broke down.  Her car will stay there until we can go pick it up on Monday or Tuesday.  Hopefully its just the starter, which is what we think.  We'll see in a few days. 

We don't have a lot of money so buying new cars is just not something we can do.  Our cars are old and the girls cars are old.  We are just blessed to even have cars.  I hope it is not a lot of money to get it fixed.  Guess will see.  I guess we will see how God provides to get the car fixed too. 

Thanks God for my babies safety.  You are so faithful.  My tears are those of thanksgiving for the God who cares for me and has blessed me so much.

As I post Kristie is safe with friends/family.  I will sleep good tonight.

Snow Day

Everything that I had to do outside my home has now been canceled.  Yah!! It is truly a snow day now.  I am leaving for vacation on Sunday and now I have an entire day to just clean and get ready to leave.  God is so good.  I needed to day.  I plan to be a PJ bum today.  I plan to do a few crafty things with the kids (if you know me, you know I'm not a craft person so I must be feeling good today).  Ok world its time for coffee.  

Thursday, March 18, 2010

You're driving me crazy

I was for sure that I would be able to come home from a night with my hubby and have nothing but happy things to post.  
Now don't get me wrong I had a wonderful time with David.  Tomorrow we will be celebrating our anniversary. I am the happiest wife around.  I love my husband and he loves me and our marriage is awesome.  I found out that he had made me a hair appointment with my favorite guy (Kenny).  I was totally excited since I had been waiting for about 4 months to get a hair cut.  I found out when I went in that it had been 1 year since I had been in.  Wow I looked a lot like a poodle (poofy).  Anyways then my hubby meet me at the mall and we headed to Jun's (which is a great Japanese restaurant), where we had sushi.  We then went to see the blind side at the dollar movie. 

****Just as a side not...I loved that movie.  It is really good.  I have not seen a movie that was good from the beginning all the way to the end.  I thought about half way through that it might be a tear jerker.  It ended up not being that type of movie.****

Anyways it ended up being a good night...until I came home.  It seems that I have been arguing with my older girls a lot lately.  It is seriously driving my crazy.  I love all my kids and wants whats best for them but the attitude of ENTITLEMENT is driving me crazy.  I pray that one day they understand why we have done some of the things we have done and how poor we really are and yet how much we have given up so that they can have.  I'm sure that day will come, but until than I just want to continue to have a good relationship with them.  It's difficult when they don't understand everything or don't have all the details.  

So I had a wonderful time with my hubby but I must admit my kids are driving me crazy.  

Here are a couple of pictures of my hair.  They were taken on David's camera so they are not very good but Kenny did a great job.  


Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Air Jumper night

We had jump night at the church tonight.  I think that have big air jumpers at the church is the best thing ever.  I love watching the kids have so much fun.  
No one got hurt and everyone had a great time.  I took Darius to the church at 3pm so he literally jumped from 3pm to 8pm.  I have a feeling that him and his sister will be sleeping good tonight.

Thats about it today.  I'm getting excited about vacation.  We leave Sunday :)

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Busy Busy Busy

Well its been a long few days.  I can hardly believe that vacation is coming soon.  Sunday Baby....I'm so excited.  So here is a run down of my last few days.  It's been way to busy to even post.:

Went to the library with the kids, and then took them up to focus on the family.  I knew that the weekend was going to be busy and I needed to get some "D" and "C" time in.  They are growing so fast I feel like I'm missing some things lately.  Hard to believe since they are with me all the time.  Keisha was back from college shopping and YES it looks like she is going to Ozark the school she wanted to go to before leaving.  I was for sure she was going to come home and tell me that she was going somewhere else.  She was home for about 1 hour before leaving with her dad to go to basketball practice.  I stayed home and caught up on my reading.  It had been a very long day.
Last Upward games on Saturday morning.  We ran out of everything so I had to go shopping for all the supplies.  I did go to book study on Friday morning.  I have really been enjoying that, which is opposite of what I thought.  The book is really good and the fellowship is even better.
Saturday:  Church by 8am....
leave for funeral at 10am....
Get back to church at 12:55pm...
children's meeting at 1pm.....
meeting gets over at 3pm....
family is ready to go home.....
I have someone who needs counciling so I do that until 4:45pm while family sits in car.....
Must leave for Upward Kindergarten pizza party, no time to go home starts at 5:00pm....
Go to CeCe Pizza until after 6pm...
Get home sometime around 7pm...
Cry because I forgot my lesson at work and need to go over it again...
Go to bed after 10pm so I can get to church by 7:30am to start new day
Get to church get everything ready I'm prepared :)  Think that I'm teaching 1st service but I'm not so I go to church 1st then teach.
Church was great.  Love seeing the kids.  Love teaching Gods word.  Love seeing people i care about.
Decide to meet friends (not just any friends but GREAT friends)(I know you're reading this JULIE and thats the truth)
for lunch instead of dinner.  Which turned out to be a great idea.  Got almost all the shopping for upwards celebration done.  
Great day but long.

More updates to come soon

Thursday, March 11, 2010

Top my day

I wish I could give you all the details of my day but Jelissa has asked me not to blog full details.  So I can tell you this.....there was lots of poo in my house this morning.  To make a long story short Darius decided that he wanted to change his own poppy pull up today.  

What this lead to was poop everywhere in his room.  When I say everywhere I really mean everywhere and on everything.  I truly think that this was the day I could have taken my child out.  It was not until he looked up at me with his big brown eyes and said "mommy I helped you, right mommy".  


And yet the answer went something like this "Darius, you did not help me honey.  You need to tell mommy when you are poopy so I can change you.  Daruis you need to stop pooping in your pull-up you are a big boy remember."

Lets just say you are glad that I'm not a picture taker....these are pics you would not have wanted to see.
And just for the record YES Cynthia was in the room :(    

Sunday, March 7, 2010

Quiet around here

Well, Keisha is gone again.  She is now running around the East coast looking at different colleges.  Her plan, most likely, is to go to Ozark in the fall but who knows.  She is with her best friend and her friends dad.  They will have a blast I'm sure.  She is going to be at Ozark on Tuesday which means she gets to stay with her sister for a couple of days, Kristie is very excited.  

So that leaves David, Darius, Cynthia, and me left here at the house.  Boy is it quiet with just 2 kids.  Off to bed they went and it was time for mommy and daddy to do what ever they want.  I went for the computer and David is actually play a video game which he rarely gets to do without someone wanting to watch TV.  The absolute quiet maybe something I could get use to.  I do miss my girls a lot but this is definitely something I will learn to enjoy.  

As for right now I will just enjoy the peace pray for my kiddo and maybe even take in a few pages of a good book.  Its been a great day.

Saturday, March 6, 2010


Today was an ok day.  I was very grumpy with my kiddos most of the day.  I feel bad about that now.  I hope that tomorrow is better than today.  Cynthia is only 19 months but is acting very 2ish, which is driving me crazy.  I don't do screaming and fit throwing very well.  She is an expert on both.  It truly driving me crazy.  She is such a sweet little girl but she has a very spoiled disposition.  She is very loved and very well taken care of, but I don't believe that I would say we spoil her.  She is just acting very naughty lately, or my patience is very short.  I think it might be both. 

I spend most of the day at the church doing things for upward today.  I am still not feeling well but tried not to make any excuse.  Just went out and tried to do what I needed to do.  Breathing is still hard.  I am still not able to go a full day without a breathing treatment.  Tonight has been difficult to breath and I may need to take another breathing treatment before turning in.

We had some really good friends over for dinner, spades and good laughs.  There's not anything better than good Mexican food and good friends.  We alway say when they leave that we should not let so much time go by before we have them over again.  So glad for good friends.  God has blessed us.  

On a side not.  One of my friends lost her mother to cancer tonight.  My heart and prayers go out to her and her family.  I pray that she will feel the love and peace of the Savior tonight.

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

What's next???

So I have been having a problem breathing for about 4 days.  David finally said enough is enough and made me call and make an appointment.  Well, of course the wanted to see me right away.  So to make a long story short...they still don't know whats wrong.  They gave me 2 breathing treatment, took a chest x-ray and took blood to test for a blood clot in my lungs. 
I have to teach tonight so I needed to get out of there.  They did decided to let me go home but sent me home with a nebulizer to give myself breathing treatments ever 4 hours.  I then have to go back to the doctor in the morning.  The blood test will be back then too.

So now I'm at work getting ready for a meeting.  And I still can't breath right :(

Hopefully I will have great news tomorrow.

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Whose son is that??? He's mine

Ok, this is possibly the most embarrassing post as a mother that I have ever written.  1st let me tell you that as a mother the one thing you want for your children is do their very best.  I love all my kids so much.  I want them to succeed in all that they do.
Well, here is my story:
As many of you know we put Darius in Gymnastics at little gyms.  He was so excited the past two times that we took him.  He did not listen to his teacher very good which made his mom unhappy.  I keep telling myself that he is only turning 3 end of this month.  He is still a young boy.  He would give them about 3-5 minutes(closer to 3) of his attention and then he is off to jump on different mats, balance beams, ropes and whatever else he's not suppose to touch or play with.

There was one younger girl who seem to be assigned to chasing the kids (I mean Darius).  I could tell about half way through Darius' class on Monday, that he was not liking her to much and that she was not liking him either.  I gave her the benefit of the doubt,  knowing that chasing a kid around for almost and hour can get frustrating.  I have had the feeling of frustration while teaching when a kid is not listening and doing the exact thing you tell them not to do.

Where things went down hill...
They played a game where they had the kids running around jumping and rolling.  Darius begin to run and have lots of fun so much fun that he begin to push the kids as he ran.  Not only was he pushing kids but not one of the  4 adults in the room seem to notice.  I finally got out of my seat and went in the other room to talk to my child.  I then asked the adults to please watch him.  He gets so excited that he just starts doing things that seem like fun but really are not good.

After several more run over here and run over there the young lady who was tired of running after my son begin to get snappy.  Just for the record...I did not feel bad about the running around after my son.  I pay good money for my son to be in this program.  There are other children who are running around as well and have been in the class for way long than 2 classes.
Anyway, there was about 15 minutes left in the class and I'm sitting way low in my seat, embarrassed that my 2 year old son  was not listening and was acting like a child who had lost his mind.  Darius decides that he is done and tried to leave the room.  The young lady who has run after Darius goes and tries to pick him up and when she does he begins to kick to get down.
Well, kicking put us over the top.  The girl comes out and says in front of all the other 16 parents..."your son can now sit with you since he kicked me"

Ok let me say a few things

1.  Kicking anyone at anytime is not ok.
2.  My son was naughty and needs to learn to listen to other people besides his mother, father or sisters
3.  I have never been so embarrassed in all my life by something my kids has done.
4.  Did I feel sorry for this girl "yes"

So today I get a call from the leader of Darius' group to tell me that she does not think that the class he is in (the 3-4year old class) is the appropriate class (the one they put him in).  They believe that he needs to do a mother/child class instead.

As of right now I have no idea what we are going to do.  Why am I blogging about this?  Because I am trying to process it all.  I'm trying not to be the over protective mother.  I'm trying to understand what this young lady must have been feeling.  I'm also trying to understand what these people expect from 3-4 year old kids or my son who is not 3 yet.  They placed him in that class.  I did not choose that class for him they did.  If you  go to pick up a child that does not want to be picked up they can  1) throw their heads back or 2) kick to get down.  Ok thats the over protective mom coming out I think????

Anyway we have not decided what we are going to do yet.  So suggestions and prayers are welcomed.

Monday, March 1, 2010

Date Night

Yes we did it again....Date night.  We had a great time.  I have to say that one of my favorite things to do is hang out with the hubby.  Kids got to bed late,  kids were very tired, Cynthia cried all the way home (almost all the way), mom in need of a good night sleep, time spent with dad worth it all.
Talk to yah tomorrow