Yes it's been awhile I know.
I have had tons of things to blog about but just have not been able to blog.
Not enough time...NO
It's strange but I have been struggling with something much bigger than that....WHAT DEFINES me. As I talk to friends, read other people blogs I am finding that I'm not the only one.
At the beginning of October I begin to make plans about all the things I was going to do with my family. I had tons of crafts to do with my kids. We were having other kids come and stay with us during Thanksgiving and I went out and purchased all the things needed to make Thanksgiving garland. I purchased 2 books last year and was given one this year, that had tons of activities for advent.
How many things have I done to date....none.
Have I had quality time with my kiddo's~YES
Have I wrestled, tickled, kissed, hugged, and played games with them~YES
But no I have not done one planned out event with them. I have this idea of what I want to do~and yes I really want to do them, but something happens.
I have a good friend, Mr Jay Julian who since I meet him many moons ago has said "we are not defined by our intentions but by our actions"
I think Satan would love nothing less than for me to just continue in the same cycle that I'm in now. Satan would love for me to throw up my hands and say I guess because I don't get to stay home with my kids everyday, or because we can't afford to buy this or that I should not be held accountable for my actions toward my kids.
I am not defined by my intentions but instead my actions.
I'm blogging today because it stops now. I no longer want to be defined by what I think about doing but by what I do. No this post is not about crafts. This post is about me doing what I know I need to do and being OK when somethings don't get done. This post is about me not allowing Satan to get a foot hold in my life and not allowing him to bind me in the pit of guilt.
I have to move on from this pit I've been in. I need to climb out and start being the women, mother, and wife that God intended me to be.
I serve a God who came to set me free and those who He sets free are free indeed. Amen